has it been a month since I came around? It is Christmas and yes I would like to wish you and your family well on this day too. Things have been boring lately. You know me, I get a little too bored when nothing new happens. I admit I have become less adventurous since you left me but... I can't really change completely. A part of me (and that's my thoughts) still goes into that direction no matter what I do. Time heals all wounds they say..but I know what that saying really means. Time makes you divert your thoughts a little but ...love which is boundless can all of a sudden take you back where it all started.
Lately I admit I haven't thought much of you my love. Maybe because I know that you are doing well and very happy with the kids. But ... thoughts are for free. I can be alone in it and can go as far as it pleases me.
.... I still dream of being in a place where I am totally on my own...and then I bump into you. You can be a stranger again in my thoughts...but yes..I'd bump into you. It feels nice to be in scenarios like that movie "Nights in Rondanthe" wherein there would be opportunities again of you and I getting together and trying to know about each other. Wherein we both would end up loving each other. Things become complicated in stories like that of course but there is a story where you and I are the highlights.
How I miss the way you have loved me. I only wish it never had to end badly. I wish I could at least cling on to something forever..something that feels a bit nicer than those you've uttered. How it makes me very sad. Unnecessarily sad.
