NEW Is exciting!

How wonderful is it to have gone this far knowing that I've got everything in life? I thank God for giving me more than I've asked for! 

I laugh now at a memory so sweet yet I'd gladly not have anything to do with even if it were served on a golden plate for me now.

It is now more fun to see how social media profiles relevant to you have become a masquerade of deceit and lies! When other people comment how "lovely" a photo of you and her is... I laugh deep inside. That's because I know how a big jerk you've been. It was all your fault not mine. You had a choice for sure... but you chose to be under the spell of Lust and Love for me. I never solicited that... but you came right at the right moment. I was lead to think that you were for me. You've deceived me and not the other way around. You see...Everything happens for a reason! Now you are in that quagmire of a disturbing and indecisive past that YOU CAN NEVER BLAME ON ME. I know your secrets! You made them known to me.  And you've given me more knowledge into your life! ... More than you ever shed light into her understanding of you. Her acceptance of you now  must be based on your endless justifications of lies. Semi-truth is still a lie, isn't it? What are you so scared of if you told her everything?  She must be truly stupid to accept your story if you only told everything without alterations. Men! I know your thoughts more than anyone ever did. I know you more than you know yourself. And you know that. So ... I don't know why I even asked these questions. Lol.

But hey...

I have been living my own life far from you and what I have here is my personal space that you have been invading forever. How dare you tell me what I can or not do here? Lol!!! This is me and I never intended to change any bit of me for the benefit of you forever. I sure wish you'd understand that! Get out of my own blogspot so you don't get bothered by it. And actually... not everything I wrote about here is about you. But since you feel that they are...just goes to show how typical a man you must be. Nothing special. Nothing worth fighting for. After all... it was just me who placed you on a kingly seat to represent something you never can truly be. I found my real "King of my heart"!!! You are nowhere close to that! 

Now I am Free!

My soul remains even when the love I feel is almost forgotten. I remember your face so well.. but that kind of love I used to feel is tucked away somewhere I could not find the key to.

A better YOU!

It's been a while again, and things are getting increasingly hectic for me these days. I didn't even have the time to think about anything else... not even the old YOU. For years now, the YOU has evolved into many other forms actually, with different other personalities. Your traits appear on a complete stranger's persona but ...yes, YOU are easily recognizable. You always come as a lesson that keeps haunting me over and over again. It is dark and chaotic and I grow tired of it especially when it becomes a bit more intrusive than how I'd want you to be. After several years in my life... I realized that it is only me who gave so much value to the idea of you. But the YOU may not always be YOU who might think until now that life evolves around yourself. It is so untrue - at least in my waking life's reality.

I look at things now from a different perspective. I have evolved through all this time into someone much more mightier than you thought I was. It is my mind that gave birth to the perfect you, and it is only I who can destroy that too.

Your name has started to fade and has become so increasingly unpopular in my mind that I decided to kill the old you.

And as I did... my heart gave birth to a newer version of YOU. This time... it will last even longer... forever as I always intended it to be.

When I start seeing my name written across every billboard in town and even in my own coffee, I shall be more than glad to wear thine ring. ... Again! As I once did ... in your dreams.