i really miss you my love :(

i have no other words to say. i just wish you will find the chance before i am gone to talk to me and be friends with me. i wanted to hear straight from you that you have loved me and you still do and that things will never change for you even when you had to realistically be with your family. i dont know what to say to you anymore. i just wanted you to know that i will always love you just as much as i meant it before. i wish i am the one you see last at the end of the day and the first in every beginning of it. I wish i am the one you see carrying your children in my arms everytime you hear them cry for you. i wish i am the one you go home to everyday. my dreams... my futile dreams