Another emotional day

Tears tears tears.... I am very sad. I looked at the videos of us again while we both were in Cambodia. I hear him speak. I hear his lovely voice and I just really wish he still speaks to me in that manner. I miss him a lot. I really wish for nothing but for him to speak with me again... even if he doesn't really promise me anything else. I miss him and I wanted to run to him now. Run in his arms and feel him again... even if he doesn't love me anymore. I guess I need help. Nobody does help me. I never knew I would feel so trapped in the past. I wanted to do everything just to get to him again. How I wish I could.